Out now: I DONE CLICKED MY HEELS THREE TIMES by Taylor Byas

It was an absolute honor to work on this collection with Taylor Byas, and I’m so glad everyone else can read it too and be floored by the power, grace, and agency of these poems. Taylor takes familiar forms and turns them on their heads, bends and sculpts them into something inevitable but surprising. Through it all, a clear picture emerges—of Chicago, of Black girlhood, of reclaiming the stories.

Inspired by The Wiz, this debut, full-length poetry collection celebrates South Side Chicago and a Black woman’s quest for self-discovery—one that pulls her away from the safety of home and into her power

I Done Clicked My Heels Three Times takes its inspiration and concept from the cult classic film The Wiz to explore a Black woman’s journey out of the South Side of Chicago and into adulthood. The narrative arc of The Wiz—a tumultuous departure from home, trials designed to reveal new things about the self, and the eventual return home—serves as a loose trajectory for this collection, pulling readers through an abandoned barn, a Wendy’s drive-thru, a Beyoncé video, Grandma’s house, Sunday service, and the corner store. At every stop, the speaker is made to confront her womanhood, her sexuality, the visibility of her body, alcoholism in her family, and various ways in which narratives are imposed on her.

Subverting monolithic ideas about the South Side of Chicago, and re-casting the city as a living, breathing entity, I Done Clicked My Heels Three Times spans sestinas, sonnets, free-verse, and erasures, all to reimagine the concept of home. Chicago isn’t just a city, but a teacher, a lingering shadow, a way of seeing the world.

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*A NATIONAL BESTSELLER*

Shortlisted for the Maya Angelou Book Award
The Millions, A Must-Read Poetry Book of Summer

“A buoyant blast of South Side love and ache, conversing with Gwendolyn Brooks and Carl Sandburg, finding room for Harold’s Chicken and Claudia Rankine.” —Christopher Borrelli, Chicago Tribune

“In prose both heart wrenching in one line and hilarious the other, Byas paints a portrait of life in Chicago with all of its ups and downs.” —Sam Franzini, Our Culture Magazine

“A literary descendant of fellow Chicagoan Gwendolyn Brooks. Like Brooks, the 27-year-old Byas turns the everyday aspects of life into the exuberantly extraordinary . . . Her collection is a love letter to the city that made her—and to her own journey of self-discovery.” —Diamond Sharp, Chicago Magazine

“With vivid imagery and a staggering wit, Taylor Byas paints portraits of her childhood on the south side and the city in warm hues . . . Byas etches out the beauty in the most mundane parts of Chicago with a reflective eye . . . I Done Clicked My Heels Three Times offers a weighty contribution to Black Chicago’s poetry legacy.” —Reema Saleh, Chicago Reader

“This impressive debut is a celebration of Chicago’s South Side, telling the story of a Black woman’s quest for self-discovery. Every poem is alive with the beauty and intimacy of growing up in the city . . . [A] stunning achievement whose lyricism echoes some of Chicago’s greatest poets, including Gwendolyn Brooks and Eve L. Ewing.” —Michael Welch, Chicago Review of Books

“It is impossible to understate the breadth and skill that Byas demonstrates throughout I Done Clicked My Heels Three Times . . . This collection is further proof that Byas is one of the most important voices in American poetry . . . We are experiencing a legend in the making.” —The Poetry Question

“[An] ecstatic debut . . . These nuanced and complex poems offer unforgettable snapshots of Black life in a vibrant city.” —Publishers Weekly (starred review)

“The poet uses her strong voice to deliver evocative, richly described snapshots . . . In this promising work, Byas tells an intimate story of growing up.” —Booklist (starred review)

“My fellow Chicagoans, rejoice. Taylor Byas’s poems are visually stunning and formally inventive. They give us more proof that everything dope does indeed come from Chicago.” —José Olivarez, author of Promises of Gold

“So many of the greatest poets in the American tradition have been Chicago Black women and this debut collection is an announcement that one more has joined that proud tradition. Byas’s work unfolds with tender attention to all sides of life in the Black metropolis. From mulberry trees to daisy dukes to candy ladies to liquor stores, this work sings of the city that raised me in an authentic way, with a careful formal attention befitting the lineage of Gwendolyn Brooks. This is a work to cherish.” —Nate Marshall, author of Finna: Poems

“In The Wiz, Dorothy finds the song of Oz and follows it down the road, easily—Taylor Byas unearths that spirit-music, too, in her stunning debut, I Done Clicked My Heels Three Times. These poems illuminate Chicago, the body, the sweat of condensation on the Kool Aid cups cooling in the heat on a summer day in technicolor memory and careful music. It is the Chicago that’s there all along among the emerald streets, the self that is always there, the loud and frightening sparkle of a father’s memory, and the sharp edge of a lover’s rough touch. It is the shades of love blooming, green, across the South Side of Chicago. In fresh, inventive, and living formal verse and free verse, Taylor Byas paints the golden path, brick by brick, and we ease on down it.” —Ashley M. Jones, author of Reparations Now!: Poems

“Some collections attempt to build new worlds. Others return to old worlds and write them anew. Byas’ dive into the familial and the familiar is an intimate project, one that questions motherhood, love, and mourning in tandem. All this, in a Chicago that shole ain’t what this world tries to make of it. Taylor’s Chicago flexes and bristles and brims with life. In Byas’ work, Chicago is a/the world, one reimagined as a clever, raw, and beautiful character. Clever, especially so because Byas uses a vast toolbelt stocked well with forms and voice(s) and smirking candor. She tells us of and tells us the truth. Byas writes, ‘what we want has so little room to grow,’ yet all the while, makes room, makes room, makes room. Move out the damn way already!” —Aurielle Marie, author of Gumbo Ya Ya: Poems

MONARCH by Candice Wuehle is out now, THE RED ZONE is out tomorrow!

Cover of MONARCH, a novel by Candice Wuehle. Cover design and animation by Michael Salu

MONARCH, the debut novel by poet Candice Wuehle, published on March 29th! The cryptic worlds of Hanna and Stranger Things mingle with the dark humor of Dare Me in this debut novel about a teen beauty queen who discovers she’s been a sleeper agent in a deep state government program.

This book is for anyone who digs witchy podcasts, Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark, The Body Keeps the Score, Stranger Things, Ultraluminous, Drop Dead Gorgeous, But I’m a Cheerleader, Women Who Run with the Wolves, Sabrina Orah Mark’s Happily column at the Paris Review, Pam Grossman’s Waking the Witch: Reflections on Women, Magic, and Power, as well as Initiated, the memoir by Amanda Yates Garcia, Oracle of LA, on trauma and finding empowerment through ritual.

NPR calls MONARCH “irresistibly weird…the kind of book that you want to start reading again immediately after turning the last page — not just to trace the conspiracy at its heart, but to appreciate how its kaleidoscope of beauty pageants, Y2K anxieties, famous dead girls, and deep state machinations synthesizes into an exploration of what makes up a self.”

Meanwhile, the Wall Street Journal praises it as “some curious brew of Robert Ludlum and Don DeLillo” and Chicago Review of Books says, “Wuehle is an artisan; one senses while reading her that she has absolute control over the page—could conjure any emotion or image with startling concision, no matter how surreal or uncanny.”

Candice was interviewed at NYLON and The Daily Iowan, and wrote a gorgeous, funny essay for CrimeReads on growing up in the crime-addicted world of the late ‘90s, and the power of The Joke. To get into the era, Candice recommended a list of 90s/Y2K books at LitHub. And if you want to hear what MONARCH sounds like, Candice made a playlist for you at Largehearted Boy.

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"A deeply introspective novel with a notable metaphor for reinvention after trauma in the form of a weaponized pageant girl."—Kirkus Reviews

"Candice Wuehle had me at 'Jon Benet Ramsey.' The poet's new novel follows a former child pageant star as she discovers ties to her previous glory and a deep state government program. Add an occult wellness guru to the mix, a heaping of mommy issues, and a queer romance for taste and this might just be my ideal book. —Kerensa Cadenas, Thrillist

"Readers sturdy enough to peer into this glittering, multifaceted novel will find weaponized beauty reflected back." —Publishers Weekly

"Don DeLillo can only dream of being Candice Wuehle, who's wrenched the maximalist postmodern novel from the hands of old white men and given it an enticingly feminist spin. MONARCH is a smart, weird, funny gut punch, the kind of book that will blister your brain in the best possible way." —Rafael Frumkin, author of The Comedown

“This book is really quite sinister, and I mean that in the Latin sense—MONARCH takes the left-hand path through a chilling (and, if you're honest with yourself, quite real) landscape as Jessica, a decommissioned MKUltra-esque beauty queen, traces back to her origins as such. Along the way, she has to tell the true from the false, which can be difficult when you have a closet full of alters and a lot of gruesome off-label memories.

“Underneath it all is a question you can probably relate to even if you aren’t the progeny of a cryogenically preserved mother and a father who lectures on Boredom Studies: How do we know which of our reactions belong to us? How can we tell apart the conditioned self from the one we actually live with, especially when we've been trauma-trained into not looking too closely at certain facts? What happens when our frozen selves start to thaw? 

“If you've always been suspicious of the institutions of childhood, beauty, and sentimentality, this book is for you. If you crave a frosty narrative voice with the whip and torque of a bitchy gymnast, this book is for you. It will make you smarter. And it will also upset your schema for the world—but you'll be glad, I promise.” —Sarah Elaine Smith, author of Marilou is Everywhere

“In this riddled pageantric, insomniac, photographic, and university-infused world of eating disorders, triple suicides, astral projections, enigmatic bruises, and uncontrollable impulses, Candice Wuehle’s poetic and narrative gaze on everything she Midas-touches is eyelined, eyeshadowed, polished, Norwegian lip-penciled, and loose powdered with her devilishly inventive, singularly imaginative beauty and a devastating wry sense of humor. Her brilliance in MONARCH will lacquer, enamel, and wax you and turn your mind inside out like a monarch butterfly macerated in emulsion.” —Vi Khi Nao, author of The Vegas Dilemma and Swimming with Dead Stars

“A wise, unsettling, and multifaceted masterpiece, MONARCH succeeds on all levels—as a portrait of an endearingly dysfunctional family, as a shadow history of Y2K and the hidden power structure underlying and undermining contemporary life, and as a profound exploration of the extremely dicey prospect of being a self in a body in the world. Unless you’re hiding in an underground city or frozen in a kryokammer in the desert, you'll want to run out and get this one right away!” —David Leo Rice, author of The Dodge City Trilogy, Angel House, and Drifter: Stories

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Out 4/19

Chloe Caldwell’s The Red Zone: a searching, galvanizing memoir about blood and love, and how learning more about her period, PMS, PMDD, and the effects of hormones on moods transformed her relationships—to a new partner, to family, to non-blood kin, and to her own body.

Chloe has a few upcoming events, spanning 4/19 – 6/26; full list here.

"Caldwell’s candor about all things menstrual is the greatest strength of this dynamic book . . . [W]omen who suffer from PMDD will take solace in the ups and downs of Caldwell’s journey toward self-acceptance, health, and love. The narrative may also appeal to anyone who suffers frustration and anger in the face of an illness for which they struggle to get an accurate diagnosis, a situation that disproportionately affects women. Provocatively intimate reading." —Kirkus Reviews

“Not since Elizabeth Wurtzel’s More, Now, Again have I been so obsessed with a book of nonfiction. I read The Red Zone in one day, in one chair, four cups of coffee, and after: a single cigarette. Obsessed.” —Elizabeth Ellen, founder/editor of SF/LD Books, author of Person/a and Her Lesser Work

“A coming-of-age memoir for those of us in our thirties who are still trying to come of age, Chloe Caldwell's The Red Zone is an incredible tale of vulnerability, family, and periods. As hilarious as it is heartfelt, and as informative as it is inspirational, here is as honest a tale of self-discovery—and eventual self-acceptance—as has ever been written. A bloody brilliant book.” —Isaac Fitzgerald, author of Dirtbag, Massachusetts

"The necessity and urgency of The Red Zone made me wonder how I—and any woman—had lived so long without it. Through the lens of PMDD and the female body, Caldwell refracts every issue imaginable, from relationships to hormones to queerness to stepmotherhood to blended families, all with hilarity, intimacy and depth. Feeling seen by this book is an understatement; it's a survival guide." —Zaina Arafat, author of You Exist Too Much

“Chloe Caldwell invites us to call shotgun on one of her most intimate, moving, and hilarious rides yet! Tinder, THC, Poshmark, WebMD, Prozac, diner eggs, ovulation—The Red Zone has all the highs and lows you come to expect in her delightful nonfiction. Plus her exploration of PMDD and being a stepmom offers a texture all their own. The Red Zone operates like a love story indeed on so many levels—we readers feel so loved turning every page of this gorgeous offering.” —Porochista Khakpour, author of Brown Album: Essays on Exile and Identity 

“Finally (finally!) someone wrote a book about struggling to understand your body and your heart and finding the answers on the internet. This book is moving, funny, and impossible to put down. Caldwell reveals the messiness of life in a way few writers can pull off.” —Chelsea Martin, author of Caca Dolce: Essays from a Lowbrow Life

“The Red Zone: A Love Story is a period memoir as only Chloe Caldwell could write it, with warmth and particularity and charm. I smiled in recognition every few pages, read parts angrily aloud to my husband as though they were his fault, and laughed loudly enough at others to wake up my dogs. Yes, it's a love story, but The Red Zone is also an adventure, which may sound like a strange descriptor for a book about PMDD until you have experienced it through Caldwell's wry, piercing, fundamentally optimistic eyes. Both personal and communal, searching and exuberant, The Red Zone will speak to anyone who has been led by pain, curiosity, or misdiagnosis to become a detective of her own body.” —Kristi Coulter, author of Nothing Good Can Come from This

HIGH-RISK HOMOSEXUAL and PATH OF TOTALITY are out now!

High-Risk Homosexual cover and animation designed by Michael Salu, houseofthought.io

Somehow, despite everything, the world keeps turning and the seasons keep changing. Now that the tulips and daffodils in town tell me, emphatically, that it’s real spring (not the fool’s spring of a couple weeks ago), I realize I’m overdue to shout out these winter books!

High-Risk Homosexual, the debut memoir by national treasure Edgar Gomez, was published on 1/11/22. This memoir follows a touching and often hilarious spiralic path to embracing his gay, Latinx identity against a culture of machismo—from his uncle’s cockfighting ring in Nicaragua to cities across the U.S.—and the bath houses, night clubs, and drag queens who helped him redefine pride.

Edgar’s book got a starred review in Publishers Weekly, and a beautiful review from ¡Hola Papi! himself, John Paul Brammer, in the New York Times!! The TODAY show and VOGUE also featured the book, and BOMB, NYLON, Poets & Writers, and the American Bookseller Association all ran in-depth interviews with Edgar. I can’t pick a favorite, so you should probably just read all of them. I also got to speak with Publishers Weekly about what makes High-Risk Homosexual, an ABA Indies Introduce pick, so special!

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"Excellent . . . A journey not without difficulties, but also not without saving grace."—Rigoberto González, On the Seawall

"Heartbreaking, funny, and vulnerable . . . Gomez expertly captures what it means to be on the cusp of embracing your full, queer self when the world doesn’t want you to do so."—Eva Recinos, Bitch

"A riotously funny and poignant debut by a quick-witted new voice . . . Displaying a masterful blend of humor, personal reflection, and thoughtful commentary on Latinx culture, Gomez’s first work is as good as it is largely due to its emotional sincerity, its willingness to examine the mistakes and lessons learned just as closely as it does the triumphs . . . This book—open, anguished, brimming with humanity—is, above all, a work of hope."—Isabella Pilotta Gois, Latino Book Review

"A breath of fresh air . . . Gomez writes with a humor and clarity . . . Gomez’s voice is equal parts warmth and acid wit, like a good friend you’re slightly afraid of . . . An exciting debut from an author with a rare point of view. High-Risk Homosexual deals with some titanic questions. What is Latinidad? What is machismo? What does it mean to be a man, never mind a queer man? By its own admission, the book doesn’t have all the answers, but it makes a compelling case that they will come from the razor-sharp queers living in the margins." —John Paul Brammer, The New York Times Book Review

THIS MEMOIR HAS EVERYTHING:

A door torn off its hinges

A mattress made out of T-shirts

Truck Nutz

A 5’9” uncut Venezuelan dude

The most famous woman in the world

A tragic, heartbroken elf

Maybelline foundation shade: Rich Tan

A baby wailing in an ancient Jesuit language

An instruction manual for raising a boy

A Honda Civic named the Speed Queen

The hottest person alive: Rachel Maddow/The Rock

A mob of supportive, half-naked strangers

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"Gomez’s vulnerable and humorous voice gives strength to High-Risk Homosexual. And yes, while this highly personal memoir is written through the unique lens of a femme-queer-Latinx, there is a universal narrative that will resonate with anyone who has ever felt marginalized. No matter how we identify or where we end up, ultimately, we are all high-risk, and Gomez captures this universality so well. Shantay."— Trey Burnette, Los Angeles Review of Books

"High-Risk Homosexual is an absolute marvel in voice, style, and its raucous, tender, heartbreaking, compassionate, and ultimately triumphant examination of gay spaces, the politics of gender, violence against GLBTQ folks, and, of course, the human heart. Edgar Gomez is an unforgettable writer with enviously fantastic storytelling skills. You'll laugh, you'll cry, you'll rage, you'll buy this book for all of your friends." —Emily Rapp Black, author of Sanctuary and Frida Kahlo and My Left Leg 

“Edgar Gomez is the chaotic queer hero we both need and deserve—with humor and charm, he tenderly leads us into night clubs, bathhouses, the backseat of cars with anonymous men, asking us to examine our current place in the world amongst the lonely and brokenhearted, the ones who dare live our truest lives. For anyone whose coming out and coming of age is messy in all the ways, let High-Risk Homosexual be a road map.” —Christopher Gonzalez, author of I'm Not Hungry but I Could Eat

“High-Risk Homosexual is a vivacious, compelling, and intimate portrait about queer coming of age and finding oneself. Gomez’s writing has this special way of inviting us in, like an old friend, catching us up to the pains, doldrums, and pleasures of living, reminding us at every turn of the exquisite messiness that is life. This memoir is a sheer delight, and one not to be missed.” —Marcos Gonsalez, author of Pedro's Theory: Reimagining the Promised Land

"The catalogue page for this debut memoir lists a number of things you can expect to find within the book’s contents. Among them are 'Maybelline foundation shade: Rich Tan,' 'A baby wailing in an ancient Jesuit language,' and 'The most famous woman in the world.' If that doesn’t entice you to read Gomez’s account of figuring out how to embrace his queer identity amid a culture of machismo, I’m not sure what will." —Keely Weiss, Harper's Bazaar, A Best LGBT Book of the Year 

“High-Risk Homosexual is a keen and tender exploration of queer identity, masculinity, and belonging. From the cockfighting ring in Nicaragua, where he was taken by his uncles to learn how to be a man, to the Pulse Night Club in Orlando, where he witnesses freedom and joy on the dance floor, Edgar Gomez writes with honesty and humor about the difficulty of straddling boundaries and the courage of finding oneself. This book signals the arrival of a major new talent.” —Laila Lalami, author of Conditional Citizens: On Belonging in America and The Other Americans

“High-Risk Homosexual is like a delicious cocktail: sharp, nuanced, sweet and tender when the bite must be tempered. Edgar Gomez writes with the magnetic candor that flourishes at gay bars, with as much style as all the queens at DragCon, with observant eyes well-trained in steamy bathhouses—all of which he sketches in these electric pages. This book parses queer spaces, the queer self, with a heart as intelligent and thoughtful as its author. As he proves in his unapologetic memoir, Gomez is a force to be reckoned with.” —Matt Ortile, author of The Groom Will Keep His Name

“Edgar Gomez has written a memoir that stands out among so many others, with a narrative voice that's singularly hilarious and observant and unforgettable, so perfectly nuanced with memory and humor in limning the landscapes of love in Florida and Nicaragua. At the center is his mother, a bright vivid burst of fear and tenderness and absolute deephearted love. High-Risk Homosexual presents a brand new voice of impeccable clarity and vision.” —Susan Straight, American Book Award finalist and author of In The Country of Women

“There's a rhythm to vulnerable, honest writing and Edgar Gomez doesn't miss a beat in High-Risk Homosexual. His characters—his mother, his friends, his lovers—are his dance partners that he lovingly dips and twirls across the page, their beauty on full display even as he bares their humanity and his own to the audience. This memoir is a master class in humor with warmth, not ridicule, and truth with tenderness, not overexposure. Pick this book up for the laughs, but have your tissue ready for a few tears too.” —Minda Honey, author of An Anthology of Assholes

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Cover art and animation by Michael Salu, houseofthought.io

Then, on 2/8/22, Niina Pollari’s poetry collection, Path of Totality, was released. This is a remarkable collection explores the sudden loss of her child, the hope that precedes this crisis, and the suffering that follows, rendering a shattering experience with candor and immediacy.

This book was edited by Sarah Jean Grimm, with some behind-the-scenes logistical assistance from me. It was a real honor to have a hand in bringing it to the world and all of the people who see their experiences reflected here.

Path of Totality also received a starred review at Publishers Weekly, was featured as a best book of the month at NYLON, and aptly called “a special, cosmic gift” by Just Circling Back. Niina was interviewed at Shelf Awareness and Triangle House. GRANTA excerpted a couple of the poems, which you can read here, and you can hear Niina read the title poem here at Catapult.

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"Pollari’s writing is expansive, all-encompassing. These poems feel like a generous act; in sharing her tragedy — not just the sorrow, but the fierce and enduring love, the moments of pure bliss — Pollari is offering a legacy, a blindingly beautiful corona surrounding all that darkness. This book, then, feels like a special, cosmic gift." —Kristin Iversen, Just Circling Back 

"A gorgeous poetry collection that contends with the sudden passing of a child. Niina Pollari's poems capture the specific, devastating feelling of fixation: not only on spurts of grief but on the small strange things you pay attention to in the wake of it, as if your brain can only hold so much." —Sophia June, Nylon, One of the Best Books of the Month 

"Pollari writes with straightforward, heartbreaking clarity. These poems are unflinching and powerful yet speak in simple, flat language that suggests everything can suddenly look different after a life-changing experience. . . . Pollari has suffered the indescribable and written from that place, showing how fierce love can be, and how unspeakable grief can be endured." —Publishers Weekly  (starred review) 

"This poet speaks from the most terrible grief, losing a child, in the most direct way possible. When language begins to fail, she does not fall silent, but moves into a startling metaphorical knowledge: 'What are you supposed to call the feeling / When you see a star and realize that it corresponds to a map / That it’s just one point in a huge map / Extending over everything like an enormous dark skull.' The poems are often not dark or sad. Yet they all feel achieved by means of an utterly terrible price. When I read their harrowing truths, I remember the irrefutable necessity of poetry." —Matthew Zapruder, author of Father’s Day and Why Poetry

"The exquisitely lyric Path of Totality is as gentle and tender as it is fierce and potent . . . Genre feels less important than the shape and shaping of language itself, and Path of Totality is a container woven to fit the content perfectly. Grief is messy, and the work does not deny that. But there is nothing chaotic about these poems. They grasp the raw and honorable honesty that deep sorrow demands, and deliver with startling clarity and attention the impossible, unending experience of loss, yes—but also, the vast emotional landscape of human experience." —Khadijah Queen, author of Anodyne

“You hold this book but this book also holds you . . . This book is alive, as painful as that might be to its brilliant writer. It’s not much comfort but not much can comfort—comfort is not in this universe. What suffuses this universe is all the universe holds despite what, and who, is lost. Am I speaking in code? Any reader of this book knows what I’m saying about it—to the reader nothing, not even utter emptiness, is alien. And emptiness is never utter, though it can be uttered and that sound resembles a splash of stars, a milky wash of stark existence, consciousness, connectedness almost unbearably relentless, almost unbearably beautiful.” —Brenda Shaughnessy, author of The Octopus Museum

“These poems are blisteringly clear, devastated, and oracular, and they brim with the kindness that comes after terrible enlightenment.” —Sarah Manguso, author of Very Cold People and 300 Arguments

“It seems impossible this book was written, and with such grace and startling beauty. Amidst utter devastation and pain—hope, even humor emerges, and tenderness for others, and the other-than-human. These poems are the sunflowers growing up through the abyss.” —Kate Zambreno, author of Drifts

WHAT TO MISS WHEN by Leigh Stein is available now!

Cover design and animation by Michael Salu (houseofthought.io)

On the heels of last summer’s hit novel Self Care, Leigh Stein’s long-awaited second poetry collection (and fifth book) is out now! What to Miss When is a 21st-century Decameron about pop culture, mortality, and the internet, written during the Coronavirus pandemic. You can order it here or from your favorite indie bookstore.

Leigh spoke about the book on NPR’s Morning Edition, and we’re doing an event tonight with Brooklyn Poets on what it was like to write and edit an entire poetry collection during the first six months of the pandemic.

Across social media, readers are describing What to Miss When as "a cathartic, playful, devious little read," what would happen if "Inside by Bo Burnham was an episode of Gossip Girl," and "a sometimes-chilling, sometimes-hilarious time capsule of a year that none of us saw coming... It feels like laughing with a friend after the end of the world."

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THIS TIME CAPSULE HOLDS:

Panic kept on you at all times like a passport

Boccaccio's Brigata and the Brat Pack

Malaise confessed in sexy baby voices

Perfume spritzed inside plague-doctor mask

Cringe as onomatopoeia

A mermaid gown of Clorox wipes

Juicy thoughtcrime thrown to a tiger

Post-it stating, Body positivity, ever heard of it?

The last Achilles of the twentieth century

Even the most virtuous with their breeches on their heads

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“I am so thankful for [Stein’s] brain—and these poems.” —Emily Burack, Alma 

“In her dazzling new collection, Leigh Stein has managed to create art from the mess of modern life, with poems both elegiac and flippant in equal measure . . . She manages to imbue each poem with just enough levity to keep the reader from losing hope. I cannot recommend this collection highly enough.” —The Voracious Bibliophile

“What To Miss When is hilarious and absolutely horrifying. If you think the quarantine habits you developed are unique and charming, read this book to be put in your place. But I beg of you, gift that to yourself, it’ll make you feel less alone. ‘I’m a feminist, I got the memo,’ is Stein’s perfect disclaimer when shouting the things so many of us are afraid to even whisper. It’s a specific kind of book that helps us remember how things were, that serves as a map for our children to understand why we are the way we are. This book is one of them.” —Olivia Gatwood, author of Life of the Party

"Early on, the speaker says she 'must be some basic bitch to click / ‘Decameron and Chill?’ in Town and Country,' and we know we’re in for a ride through the pandemic that has some 'mischief' in it. It’s this mischief, Stein’s relentlessly refreshing humor about the 'new normal'—equal parts rueful self-deprecation and excoriating cultural critique—that makes this book such a worthy artifact of the American experience of the pandemic." —Jason Koo, founder and executive director of Brooklyn Poets

“Initially, you may think these poems are witty. They Are. Upon reflection, you may decide these poems are piercingly honest reflections of contemporary desires, run headlong into a plague year. They are. In the dark of a sleepless night, you may feel that these poems saw through your ironic façade and got at something deeper. They did.”—Keith Mosman, Powell's Books (Portland, OR)

The LONG-AWAITED 2020 writing and editing roundup

Late to this party because time isn’t real. Before the infinite year finally ended, I did a little roundup on Twitter of everything I wrote and edited in 2020, sort of as proof? that things, small but meaningful things, still happen? and can help mark time? Like sand through an hourglass, tweets are (coarse and rough and irritating and…get everywhere?) ephemeral, so here’s the roundup again, where it’s likely to stay in one place for a while.

Essays, poems, etc. I wrote/published this year:

• “On ASMR, Anxiety, Relaxation in the Side-Hustle Economy, and Being Baby,” January 2020. My first Internet as Intimacy column, on the ASMR community and how, for someone who is anxious, receiving care across time/distance can be more relaxing than in-person care.

• “The Orchid’s Curse,” February 2020. This poem about Donna's monologue at Harry-the-orchid-guy was published in These Poems Are Not What They Seem (APEP Press, 2020), a Twin Peaks-themed collection edited by Kristin Garth and Justin Karcher. We had a virtual Performance Anxiety book launch.

• “Podcasts and Tarot Reading Showed Me How to Be Real Instead of 'Good,'” April 2020. My second column, on how podcasts and rituals helped me unbury my emotions and start to take up more space. I'd never been more afraid to share something I’d written; all of the comments and messages I received made me feel it was worth it. To everyone who reached out, even if I wasn’t able to respond: thank you.

• I wrote some dumb smut again for the revival of #shipwreckSF during a virtual “homewreck” event, April 2020. We wrecked Jane Austen’s Emma.

• “Of all the classes of people who ever lived” and “THE FINANCIAL BENEFITS OF CHIVALRY,” July 2020. My Phyllis Schlafly erasure poems in blood were published in Erase the Patriarchy (University of Hell Press, 2020), a beautiful, full-color anthology of art-as-poetry edited by Isobel O’Hare.

• “When the Internet Still Felt Like a Place, I Went There to Forget About My Body,” December 2020. My third (and maybe final?) Internet as Intimacy column, on the mortifying ordeal of having to exist in a physical form, and the powerful nostalgia I hold for the internet of the late 90s/early 2000s as I remember it. (Things I cut from this essay during its many drafts: secret sex codes in jelly bracelets, fear-mongering about teen texting acronyms, that time my face appeared in the Washington Post as an example of how well the Google Arts & Culture app works but no one noticed that I had dressed up as my doppelgänger as an illegibly “funny” prank...)

Essays and stories I edited for Catapult :

• “Prenatal Nightmares,” January 2020. This was the first essay for Maggie Tokuda-Hall’s Fear and Loathing in Utero column. “If I love you, then I’ve imagined your death a thousand times.”

• “It's a Boy! Whatever That Means,” March 2020. Maggie’s second column installment, on bad advice and gender nonsense.

• “AREA CANNIBALESS,” March 2020. Some visceral (I’m sure I’m not the first to make this joke) flash fiction by Lauren Friedlander. “I need for you to tell them about the boy, about what I’ve done. I need them to destroy me for it.” Mindblowing original art by Christina Chung.

• “Shlomo & Fanya,” April 2020. Short story by Angela Melamud, with several gorgeous illustrations by Gabriella Shery. “Blowing through fallen branches, cobwebs mask their faces. Their heels keep pace to a tempo the family knows by heart.”

• “The Gift of a Guilt-Free Epidural,” April 2020. Maggie’s final Fear and Loathing column. “Getting an epidural was an option that the instructor said could be necessary, and that we shouldn’t feel guilty taking. But she said this couched in a thousand reasons not to.”

• “Dying in America, or How to Become Completely Invisible,” May 2020. Essay by Bailey Cook Dailey, on navigating a lack of concrete etiquette for death and grief: “In this vacuum, the people in our lives and the people we encountered had reverted to what was easiest for them; denial, terror, avoidance.”

• “Montana Boys,” June 2020. Essay by Kamil Ahsan on navigating unspoken power dynamics in queer, interracial dating. “Suddenly, I felt comfortable saying out loud that he needed to reckon, really admit to himself, that what he was really saying was that he didn’t want to be with a brown person.”

• “Atrophy of the Author: In Fanfiction, Writers and Readers Are on More Equal Ground,” July 2020. Essay by Emilia Copeland Titus, on the world of fanfiction as a place to find community, hone craft, and reconsider the role of author. “The source text is almost superfluous, like a piece of art copied over and over until it is unrecognizable from the original.”

• “Living in Translation, or Why I Love Daffodils, an Unpopular Postcolonial Flower,” August 2020. Essay by Aruni Kashyap on reading and writing in multiple languages as a form of postcolonial resistance. “Underneath the sheen, it is a story that begins with epistemological violence; it is about the erasure of local languages and indigenous cultures.”

• “An Instrument of the Heart,” September 2020. Short Story by Nahida Nisa, on willfully ignoring trauma, and feeling/being alien. “She knew her mother’s planet must have been borne from the water and made entirely of it; she felt this is in her blood.”

• “An Ode to the Great Undead Novella,” October 2020. Essay by Aruni Kashyap on how “the death of the novella” is a U.S.-centric conversation. “Where I lived and grew up, the novella was never endangered. It was, in fact, a dominant genre that not only nourished our souls but also influenced public debates.”

Catapult and Soft Skull books:

I assisted series editor Yuka Igarashi with edits for Best Debut Short Stories 2020: The PEN America Dau Prize, published this fall (Catapult, 2020). This annual anthology features twelve prizewinning debut fiction writers; this past year’s winners were selected by judges Tracy O’Neill, Nafissa Thompson-Spires, and Deb Olin Unferth.

This year’s anthology features Ani Cooney, David Kelly Lawrence, Mohit Manohar, Valerie Hegarty, Kikuko Tsumura (translated by Polly Barton), Willa C. Richards, Kristen Sahaana Surya, Sena Moon, Damitri Martinez, Mbozi Haimbe, Matthew Jeffrey Vegari, and Shannon Sanders. Updates on winners present and past can be found at the Robert J. Dau Foundation website.

I acquired my first books for Soft Skull this year, which will roll out over the next long while: WHAT TO MISS WHEN, a new poetry collection by Leigh Stein (Fall 2021); HIGH-RISK HOMOSEXUAL, a debut memoir by Edgar Gomez (Fall 2021), and MONARCH, a debut novel by poet Candice Wuehle (Spring 2022).